Whats Going on

Where am I?
Am I loosing myself?
Am I really me?
People dont know what is going on anymore
I do not see those I really love.
Is it something I said?
Or something I did?
Why are we drifting apart?
Its tearing at my heart!
I just want to see your smile
to hear you laugh
To hold you when your sad.
I dont want, "I forgots"
Or "I already said"
Maybe I am holding on to the past
maybe I have to let it go.
But I dont want to do that
I dont want to go there
I just want you here
beside me again!

Another Christmas Over

Well, one Christmas dinner down and one to go! I can not believe that Christmas is over already and next week at this time it will be January 2 2006! Where does the time go? Christmas was wierd this year. I mean church and stuff made it seem like Christmas, although we did not sing Er-re Zig God (dutch song, old Tradition) AGAIN! I feel we are loosing our roots sometimes and where we all came from. But that is a whole new post and right now I dont want to get into it. But after Church in the afternoon, i went to sleep and did not wake up till 7:00pm and then ate some left over ham and cheese and stuff, then went and worked on stuff for my parents anniversary. I would love to tell you what it is, but I can not because because they do not know yet. Bwah ha ha!

So yeah, it was wierd yesterday, but today I am looking forward to seeing all of my cousins and hanging out with them. And then tomorrow I get to hang with my parents. I just wish that this feeling of I dont know sadness, or some other inexplainable feeling would go away so I could enjoy myself more. But I know that I will.

But anyway Have a wonderful rest of the week! Enjoy life and smile, remembering that it is because of God that you will be blessed with a new year!

I should be making Banana bread

Hello wonderful people that read my blog! An almost merry christmas to you! did you know that I have been bloging for like a year and a half now. How fun is that. And completly irrelivent to anything. Anyway.. School is over for the semester!!! I am so happy I could cry. And you know, as much as I love my friends, I really dont think that I will miss them as much as I did last year during the break. Call me crazy, but I really dont think i will. I think I can say that because I know that I will be seeing Leah sometime... I better, I can't see LWW without her. (lion witch and wardrobe) and if she has seen it already, I will cry! (I really will!) Anyway.
I am now only working one job, the one with my boys. I was working another one, but due to some things I am no longer there. (I will tell you if you want to know, but probably on a personal level) Anyway I am happy about that.
On Thursday I went to my boy's christmas concert. (I say my boy cause I work with him Alot!) we will call him K! Anyway K made me so proud, and i am not even his mother. YES!
I work with K all next week, and then when he is on holidays, i get to work with someone I have nto worked with in a long time. But still have my evenings off. Hint hint to those that want to hang!
Yesterday i went to the Messiah with my family! WOW! I was blown away. okay so I have heard good singing before, but really this was fantastic. And the coolest thing was I did nto move. My mom was bugging me because normally i fidget. I do, its true if you knwo me you would agree. Anyway I did not move until intermission, and then again until we had to stand for the Halleluiah chorus. It was so awesome. And I saw some of my friends that was awesome too.

But I should be making banana bread because mom asked me too. Have a great wonderful night

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The pre Christmas Dinner

So I never actually posted one of the best days/nights that I have had in a long time. The wonderful day happened on the 26th of November. Well actually it started on the 25th. So Friday I go to my singing class, and then swimming I go. Only it was bring your parents to the pool so Scott and Kels brought mom and dad Gamble, and Charlotte brought Mom Mackin. It was glorious fun. After some serious basket ball, Scott and i went into the steam room, where we were given the treat of listening to like 5 diggaridoes in the steam room. They say the sound comes better with the steam. Anyway it was awesome.

So Sat. Comes around and well we have 14 people over for dinner. Now this was a wonderful dinner because the students of concordia made it, with mom and dad Gamble. First we all split off in teams, ( i was team desert with Lauren and Chris) and then we went shopping. Well after that it was making our food. Giggle Chris and Lauren can sure fork chocolate cake. (we made an all chocolate triffle! YUMMY) So then we went and made fancy decorations down stairs. But first I had to fight off Eric cause he was trying to steal our triffle.(see above picture!) Its true he was, and before the picture I was winning, and I would like to say, I did end up winning anyway! It was grand.

After that I went to go see Filumena the Opera!! OH SO GOOD! I was just captivated and sat on the edge of my seat during the first act. I had tears running down my face and i was just amazed. It was brillant, and I can not wait till the next opera comes in Febuary. Yeah!! So that was my wonderful days of days. And I will have to write about my week, because monday is Micheal W Smith, Tuesday is Caroling and hot chocolate at the presidents, and Wednesday is roller skating! YEAH!!! and then friday exams start. AHHH.

Anyway Have fun!

Smile

Have a great day

my life as we know it

So I have not written in a long time. Well thats fun! So I thought I would write so that you all know what is going on with my life at this wonderful moment. Yesterday was Developmental Disabilities awarement day. (basicly making people aware of different disabilities.) I celebrated!

So what has been going on in my life. Well I have been really busy because I have exams soon and papers to finish. (in fact i am supposed to be writing one right now, but I am taking a break.) I am doing really well in all of my classes and hopefully my exams dont make it seem as if i am doing bad. :) They will not. Speaking of exams... I have my drama final on monday. Now normally I would be all excited about this, but this time I am not really. I am just praying that it will work. I know that there has been some hard work put into it and for that I am forever thankful, but this has been the hardest group project I have ever done. Now dont get me wrong I love most of my fellow actors, and feel as if they are doing a wonderful job. ( you know who you are) There are just some that are not doing what they should be doing, and it is ruining the group dynamic. But you know sometimes that happens so we will just have to deal with it.

Yesterday I spent the evening with my best friend. I loved it, we went out for dinner to Red Robbins (YUMMY) and then went to go see a movie. AeonFLUX. It was so good. I enjoyed most of it, but there is one gross part with lots of blood and I dont like that, but Shley saved me, and told me when I could look again. It was kinda gross, she said my face just went white. Giggle I love me and blood. So then after that we went to Death by Chocolate. Oh boy did I almost die! It took us like 15 minutes to deside what we were going to eat. And when we finally did, WOW! I think I have to take Laura there one day... Or anyone else who wanted to come. Shley and I said that if ever, the Lord willing, we get married, we will have our bridal party there. (or take our bridesmaid there) And we both decided that it would be the best place to take someone on a date. I mean what girl can resist having a boy buy chocolate for them. And the setting is quiet and wonderful for the first time dates. (And dont worry Matt, there are no salt and pepper shakers to knock over) Oh it was SOOOOO good. And the company wasn't bad either.in fact the company was wonderful and probably the best that I have had in a long time. No offence other wonderful friends, but she is my bestest friend in the world and I missed her!

Well now that that was over I went over to another friends house for their engagment party. While there I saw some people I have not seen for a long time. That was nice. So anyway here is a funny story and i now have the wonderful bruises to prove it. So there were streamers up, they were pretty high, I think around 6'6" because they went up to Robs nose, and he had 3 more inches to go. Anyway they were trying to kick them. Jeff could cause he is 6'4" but Katherine and I tried. Well Katherine missed, but then it was my turn. So I get ready and I Kick really high. Remember I am only 5'7" so that is a long way up. I did not think I could make it. Anyway so I do. (thank you thank you) But I think the only reason I hit it was because i was in the air. I forgot to mention, the streamers were in the kitchen, the kitchen floor is slippery, and I was wearing socks. So after doing my wonderful beautiful kick, I fly up into the air, and wait for it, no i do not fall on my butt, that would have been better. I fall on my side. Yes my side. Because I was doing a side kick. Oh it was so funny, but now, well now I have a bruise that is huge. I would love to show it off, but I will not cause it is in a place where I will not be showing anyone. (Upper thigh) Anyway It was funny, we all laughed, and they told me to stop drinking. Funny thing was, I hadn't had anything to drink since 9:00 and that was water. ( i think it was tiredness or something) But I told them i was thankful I was not getting married cause then they would all remember it for my wedding and tell the story. AHH!

So now today i am sitting at home doing papers, I might attempt to clean my room, and help my mom unpack grocieries when she comes home. And then do stuff with the church tonight. Then on monday i am going to Micheal W Smith!!!!!!!! YES! I am so excited. Well have a great day.

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As of Now

Winter Formal



So right now I am supposed to be writing a paper that is due tomorrow. I really do not like my drama presentation, and I know that there are others that feel this way. Maybe we can fix it. And I have my mind on other things.

You would be proud of me friends, especially the ones that saw me yesterday, I went to bed at 9:00pm and did not wake up till 9:00 the next morning. I needed it though. And I did end up going to visit a friend who is in the hospital.

So they still do not know what is wrong with her. AAARRRRGGGG!! I wish I could be like, you have ............ (thats a blank) and be done with it. Yesterday Michelle told her she had hoof in mouth. Cause that is SO likely! (giggle it was to make her laugh and it did.) We did alot of God talk, it kinda made some people uncomfortable, but whatever they have to deal. Please pray for her, her family and the doctors into finding out what is going on. Just send up a request for Alysons friend, He will know who you are talking about.

On a different note, I can not believe school is going so well, fast. I almost want to have another week to get everything done. I hate this! But what can you do.

Oh winter formal was so much fun, and I love how everyone looked. well yeah its true. depends on where the picture is. That is me in Winter formal with my friend Kaylyn! we look fine. Anyway I should go and write my paper, get tickets for the opera, and try to like my drama final...

I did it

Well, I put my foot out there, and i applied for CMU today. Wow, so next year I might be in Winnipeg. AHHH! pray for me

My Inner Child

Your Inner Child Is Happy

You see life as simple, and simple is a very good thing. You're cheerful and upbeat, taking everything as it comes. And you decide not to worry, even when things look bad. You figure there's just so many great things to look forward to.

How Is Your Inner Child?

Cause everyone is doing it!

I took this from Alisons blog. Have fun I can not wait.

If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me.
It can be anything you want, either good or bad. I promise not to come after you with a HIGH-HEELED SHOE(?????) either way.

When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your LJ/blog/MSN space/myspace/etc and be suprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you.

Stole it from Isaiah

I stole this from Isaiah and was bored so I did it. Hope you learn something
Name: Alyson
Birthday: April 9 1984
Birthplace: Edmonton Alberta
Current Location: St. Albert Alberta
Eye Color: Green/brown
Hair Color: right now Chestnut
Height: 5'7"
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right and left. It depends on what i am doing
Your Heritage: DUTCH!
The Shoes You Wore Today: Shoes, I have not worn any today, I have worn slippers though
Your Weakness: Not being able to say NO
Your Fears: Not going where I want to go, I have this strange fear of blood. And being alone my whole life.
Your Perfect Pizza: a yummy one that is not cold. Probably with chicken on it
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get A's in my classes, get accepted to the colleges I want for my Music Therapy. Work hard and be loved.
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: giggle
Thoughts First Waking Up: "5:45, I wonder if Henry is waking up this morning?"
Your Best Physical Feature: My smile
Your Bedtime: 11:00 pm unless otherwise planned
Your Most Missed Memory: Talking to my Omas and Opas. (either side! I have good memories from both!)
Pepsi or Coke: Coke
MacDonalds or Burger King: Macdonalds
Single or Group Dates:Depends on were you are in the relationship.
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate.
Cappuccino or Coffee: I like toffe coffee
Do you Smoke: Do I want to die?
Do you Swear: sometimes things like Son of a Moose come out of my mouth
Do you Sing: Yes indeed, it is like second nature to me
Do you Shower Daily: Yes
Have you Been in Love: I have been in very strong like
Do you want to go to College: well been there, now I am in University college, and back to college after this, so I would say Yes
Do you want to get Married: Do Sparrows fly?
Do you belive in yourself: Some times
Do you get Motion Sickness: On airplanes sometimes, and a boat once
Do you think you are Attractive: maybe my face
Are you a Health Freak:not really, although I do like fruit and veggies
Do you get along with your Parents: Yep.
Do you like Thunderstorms: honestly...no Unless someone is with me
Do you play an Instrument: I play two and I sing
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes
In the past month have you Smoked:Nope
In the past month have you been on Drugs:Buckleys and Asprin
In the past month have you gone on a Date: a friend date
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yep Sat.
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:I dont like raw fish
In the past month have you been on Stage: YES!!! Go Diviners
In the past month have you been Dumped: No.
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: No.
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: Nope
Ever been Drunk: Not to my knowledge :)
Ever been called a Tease: Probably.
Ever been Beaten up: Well if you call Dave tackling me cause I had his hat on beating up,then ges
Ever Shoplifted: Nope.
How do you want to Die: of old age.
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: A ninja, and a clown, and a music therapist, and a mom, and a clown and a wife, and a clown.. wait did I mention I wanted to be a clown.
What country would you most like to Visit: hmm well I would love to go to Africa, and maybe somewere like China (cause i have always wanted to be there to!) Then back to Europe, and maybe somewere fun like Australia
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color: blue
Favourite Hair Color: doesnt matter I like any colour although, I have always been partial to brown
Short or Long Hair: short, well no longer then just past the ears
Height: taller then me
Weight: ...?? How should I know? Who cares?
Best Clothing Style: fun and not to expensive looking
Number of Drugs I have taken: I am confused. Maybe I should stop taking all these drugs
Number of CDs I own: I own like 50
Number of Piercings: four two in each ear
Number of Tattoos: none right now
Number of things in my Past I Regret: Too many to count, but Jesus forgets those things, so I shouldn't try and hold them against myself. (this is Isaiahs answer but I agree, therefore I am also using it. Thanks Isaiah!)

its poem time

They have a friendship

A bond no one can break

She thinks of him as her best friend

And she is happy that he has found someone to love

She is so very happy

But deep inside her, she has fallen.

Not because of sadness

But because of uncertainness

She does not want to hurt again.

It happened once before

A long time ago

When things were going so well

So fun and so free,

And then the two became three.

And it faded,

It ended

Never to be the same again.

So here she is a second time

Praying it does not happen.

Knowing it probably will not

But still she is so very scared!

She doesn’t know how to act,

Whether she should step back and watch it happen

Of if she should carry on the same way.

She knows what way is the best way,

What way is the right way,

But she is scared of hurting

Scared of loosing this friendship

So she feels the need to step back

And not say anything

but that is the wrong way.

She thanks the Lord that he is happy

That he is able to love.

Maybe it is just her being selfish,

Not wanting to share,

Not wanting to be hung out to dry again.

She feels he will not change

But the question

Will he?

Still stays in her head.

If she has to let go she will

If she has to say goodbye she will

but then,

Who will hold her hand?

Who will hold her close?

Who will she go to when she has to talk?

When she has to pray.

She does not want to let go

She does not want to say goodbye.

She wants to say hello,

I need your hand and arms right now.

I need you thoughtful words

And I need the prayers to God.

She prays to God, for this friendship

And she leaves it in HIS care.

That day by day it strengthens

And she never has to fear.

Alyson Bosch 2005

A wonderful photo

Here is the cast and crew of the Diviners, I am the one in the red shirt!

Concordias play

WOW! Concordia does some good stuff! I just wanted to say, this week is the week of the Diviners, and I am so happy that I am part of the crew. In fact my name is even in the program yep thats right it totally is! And I love the other crew members, from our Rocken Stage Manager!and the assistant stage managers (woot woot!R+M+A I HEART YOU!) to our lights people (your hot!) to our amazing cast. If anyone has a free moment before Sat. come come and see this play. It is so good, and so sad, but so good! I do not want to give it away, but I do want to say that alot of the people that have come to this have walked away with tears in their eyes and saying it was an amazing and touching play. So come one come all!! If you want to come but dont know how to get there, come talk to me! I will let you know...

My monologue

I thought I would post my monologue up that I have to do either the 14tho or the 16th! I hope people can come and watch them... I will have to ask Caroline... Anyway so if you are in my class and you read this (JUSTIN) please dont tell the rest of the class. But anyway they will have to see how I act it out. Peace, ( I hope you have tissues!)

Phone Rings: “Hello, oh hello Dr. Jones, yes this is Amy, okay, are you sure, wow that um, okay, yes, are you sure? Positive? Okay thank you, bye Puts phone down and grabs picture of the two of them, not saying anything for like 10 seconds, brush a tear off face and sit down still holding the picture.

“Oh Jeremiah, that was the doctor, what am I going to do? I wish you were here right now. I can’t do this on my own!! Why did I make you go and pick up milk, why! You should have come right home, and then you could have been here with me, instead of, well instead of gone. It’s all my fault! I know it is, and I can’t do this, I can’t. I never thought that I would have to say good bye so soon. Yesterday I picked up the guitar Jeremiah, I did! And you would be proud of me I played a song….. It was good, well as good as can be expected. And yesterday I went through the photo albums. It’s hard to see your face baby, and know that I can not just reach out and touch it. It’s hard!! And Mom and dad invited me to the beach…Our beach; I went, but had to leave!! This is not right! I NEED YOU HERE! Especially now, how am I going to get through these next nine months, no these next 60 years without you. My comfort is that now, now I will have you with me always, and every time I look at our little one, I will remember. I love you baby, you would have made a great father!

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A day in the life

So today I did not go to school until 4:00. It felt wonderful to sit at home and do some work, and then go to school and sing. It was good, got to hang with Scott before choir, and we hung up some posters. But after today I have realized that I can not speak english and I can not tape. I was almost cut from the poster hanging, but that would have been horrible and then Scott would have had to do it on his own. Although i am sure he could have gotten someone to help him... Nah! ( I would like to clarify, he was the one that asked me to help him hang them up!)

Anyway moving on with the day. So my teacher wants me to direct or choir. I have done it before but today I felt really inadiqute. It was sad, maybe it was because looking at some of the people I could tell they were only there because they were getting credit for it. That always makes me mad when they are only doing things like this for credit. Oh well! It is not my problem they do not want to be there.

I have been reading some of the other poems that people in my school write and put in the paper. Its true I have also had some poems in the school paper, but reading other peoples, I feel as if I can not write. I hate that feeling because I love to write, but then I read these and I am like, I can not write like that, so I get into a writing block. GRRRR!!

So last week some things that I put away on the shelf of Alyson came back to bite me in the butt. I hate that but I actually delt with them this time instead of putting them away. I am happy with the way school is turning out. I have been working hard and I feel that it is showing. i am working hard on things outside of credit stuff too. The other day the film festival stuff got mailed out, and now I have to do some stuff for it and chapel so that we can get that flying off the ground and the Concordia play is next week. Therefore I will be busy and not home from Tuesday night to Sat. Night!! i am so excited but know that I am going to burnt out. How fun is that!!!

Speaking of chapel, I wrote my little insperation thing for the 18th today. i know I should have been doing my speech for friday, but that is not working and I know I will have that done later. But I really am proud of my insperation thing. I only think I like it because it is about warm fuzzies. I told Muffin today that that is what it was on, and he just rolled his eyes. I think it is good, but I will probably change some of it later on, seeing as how I have a little bit of time yet. It will be good I am thinking and I am proud of it. When I type it out i will post it so that you can read it although I am probably wing most of it, but that is okay, you cna still be able to see the basis. I can not wait.

Anyway that is the day in the life of me. I hope that every other day is just as exciting and I will write a wonderful review of the Deviners sometime next week so that you can know how it is going or how it went. Anyway May your day be wonderful and in the words of Montiverdi, Live Happily!

umm, so this is my crayon, Just like Leah!

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

giggle

You Are a Mai Tai

You aren't a big drinker, but you'll drink if the atmosphere is festive. And when you're drunk, watch out! You're easily carried away.

What Mixed Drink Are You?

Come to realize

So manythings have happened over the past two weeks. I have come to realize a few things. One that I needed to drop Bio, so I did, and now I feel that the stress is gone. Also that I really love Vivaldi, I knew I liked his stuff before but I really did not know how much until I had to listen to it for my listening quiz. "The Spring" is so wonderful and uplifting. I have also come to realize how much I miss my friends when I do not see them all the time. Its true. I also realize that life is never going to slow down unless I make it, and i am not about to make that happen. I also went to my first "party" of the school year on Friday. it was fun, and I enjoyed myself. I was kinda sad that some of my friends were not there to hang, but due to reasons they could not control they were not here. And get this in 4 months I will be soaking up the sun in HAWAII! yep thats right! I am so excited. Okay so I keep thinking about how the mission trip would be so cool but really, its HAWAII! and i am going to learn how to surf and I am going to swim with the fishies. It excites me! Hola :)

On the Hunt

I am on the hunt. Over this week I discovered that the school I want to go to next year only excepts 18 people. AHHH! So tonight I sat behind the computer and searched and emailed ever school in Canada (which equals to 3 other ones, two in Ontario and one in Winnipeg) asking for more information. So if I can not get the one in BC, then I am going to apply for every single other one to see if I get in. And two of them are Christian schools. One of them is a Lutheran school in Ontario, and the other one is a Mennonite school in Winnipeg. I hope that if I do not get excepted to the one in BC then I can get excepted to one of those. I hope so, but as long as I am going to school I will be happy. And get this. One of them the full year tuition, is only a grand more then one semester right now. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Homework

After spending the day doing homework I have come to a few conclusions.
1) Writing essays ahead of time is a good thing. (yeah me!)
2) Fairy Tales are EVIL! (the original ones)
3) Listening to music for my listening quiz is fun
4) Listening to music for my listening quiz with blocked ears due to my cold is NOT fun
5) writing practice listening quizes are hard, cause you have to select the song to play on the computer, therefore you know what your playing
6) forgeting my singing books at school, therefore leaving me to transpose in a hurry on Monday is not good.
7) forgeting my singing books means, I only do warm up
8) forgeting my singing books means, my family will not tell me to stop singing, cause I am not.
9)going to the Library to find my next reading book is smart because then I don't have to buy it. But not finding out if it is checked out before I go, is not smart.
and finally
10) I feel like I did something good after a full day of homework. GO ME!

AAARRRGGGG!

STUPID COLDS STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I even have to skip church tomorrow, that has not happened for a long time. AAARRRRGGG!! And I wonder should I email my voice teacher and tell her I do not have a voice. That it is gone. hmmmmm. I will have to see what the parents say. Or I can go there, show up and then see what happens. That way I am not skipping a lesson. Because I am not missing school. (it should be better by monday right???)

What a day

Today was so good. I really enjoyed myself. But I wanted to share with my experiance of Chapel. So today we had some guests come from Africa, and they were AMAZING! Her testimony brought tears to my eyes. She would just raise her voice at the most important parts. (anything with Jesus, or salvation in it) it was so astounding and made me want to go more and more to Africa. Oh I loved it.

Then in Drama we had to share our treasures, I shared my bible and a picture of my best friend. I almost turned into a bubbling fool. But it was good, and I learnt alot about my classmates.

My day was Fantastic and so glory filled. Except I have a cold. OH WELL!!

Praise the Lord.

Why is Money an issue!

So, yeah..... School is EXPENSIVE!!!! And I have come to the conclusion that I am going to owe the Government A LOT of money. Yet I still want to go to BC to study after this, but how can I afford it. And if I stop to work for a year before I go there, I will probably not go there. I am also thinking that if I do not go to BC then I will probably finish here first. And although that will be okay for I like school, I will still be broke and clueless. Why is it that we as students have to pay so much money to get an education. And in order to pay for this education we need jobs, but they will not hire us unless we have a good education. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

Maybe God is trying to teach me a lesson, so I ask that you pray for me so that I dont get stressed to no end. And that God guides me were to go!

New Look

So yesterday I changed my look. Okay not totally, I just got a hair cut and new glasses. It was fun although the hair dresser cut the hair a little bit shorter then I would have thought her to do. (well then I told her too) therefore I am not so sure about the hair, but it grows, and thats okay. But I LOVE my new glasses. The picture does not do them justice but hey, they still look cool.

Felt it

So, I just wrote this, but I thought to my self... People might not think I am okay. This poem is one of those, the speaker wrote it but not thinking about themselves poems. You know what I mean? Anyway it did have some inspiration, but that will remain unknown.

Misted eyes wander

And they stop at you.

Do you see them?

Do you feel them?

I know you do!

Cries of anguish are screamed out.

And they stop at you

Do you hear them?

Do you heed them?

I know you do!

Years of hurt are voiced in pain

And they stop at you.

Do you understand them?

Do you grasp them?

I know you do!

You turn misted eyes, clear

You make every cry, sing

And you make every hurt, disappear.

What more can we ask?

What more do we require?

You are there in any time of need!

For you are amazing

You are astounding

You are our God!

Alyson Bosch ‘05

It has begun!

School, Oh the thing that I was so excited for has now come back. And Now I am counting the days till fall break in November. No, it was not that bad, just first day of school overwhelming and crazy. I can not believe I am in my fourth year of post secondary, and yet have another year maybe a year and a half to go.

So have a learnt anything today?..........Sometimes things and people change but sometimes it is for the better. Have I learnt anything school wise? NOt to get stressed, (although I have not had bio yet so....)

I have learnt some things over the summer though. Patience, strength, God's love, friendships, Love. Yeah I learnt alot. But I can not wait to learn more. Some wonderful things might be just around the corner for me, and I will let you all know when they happen. But until then. I am just praising God that He is always teaching me. It is never ever going to stop!

Praise the Lord

Just three of the shots of sunset at slave lake. I wish I had my camera when the northern lights were out but alas I did not.

I look at these pictures and I remember how awesome and remarkable God is. How can anyone see the sunset and all of the colours God painted in the sky, and not believe in Him. It makes me sad just thinking about how people do not know Him.

But then I get so happy and excited because I know Him. And I see His creation and know that it is from Him for us. Like a present everyday! Praise the Lord. How awesome and magnificent is His creation. I thank Him that He has given me the means to enjoy it! HOw great He truly is.

School

So today I was back in the hussle and bussle. Ahhhhh! I can not believe that it is starting again. How crazy it is that we are about to start another year of school. I thank God for that.

So I have been blessed enough to see most of my friends this weekend. (Leah I am waiting patiently) I have also been able to talk to some of them. Oh how wonderful it is. Although I did not really talk to one as much as I should have... Maybe I will call tonight. In fact yes yes I will.

But OH I am so excited that I am about to start school soon. God is truly a great God.

I am thinking of a song its a little kids one but meh

"Praise Him Praise Him all you little people,
God is Love, God is Love!
Praise him Praise Him all you little people.
God is Love, God is Love!"

Have fun and stay in school cause it is cool

Beautiful people

So this is what my family looks like when we are all dressed up. It was my moms birthday party and we had a lot of fun! Oh the joys. We suprised her with a formal party and I think she was very suprised.

A Poem

Mind wandering unselfishly

Into the unknown.

Eyes gazing forward

Into the future.

What is going to happen?

What will be the answer?

Who knows but God?

As the mind wanders

the prayers go up.

As the eyes look forward

The prayers go up.

I give my life to God,

I will be his servant.

All of the plans are His

Everything is His.

I lay everything at His feet.

And surrender all of my burdens.

I rely fully in Him,

And believe His is my All in All.

I put my trust in Him

That he will revel my future

So the Unknown will be known

And the future will settled

Because I will be there with Him.

Alyson Bosch 2005

Its coming closer

So I was looking at the calander today, and I thought to myself. AHHH I only have two weeks and I am back in school. I have nothing ready, I am not even ready. Although I will be so happy to be back. Yesterday I was at school, picking up a friend I have not seen for four months. (OH how wonderful it was to see him, I forgot how wonderful he was!) Anyway so we are walking into school, and I was like wow I miss this place. Its kinda weird how I do. Last year I was there already at this time, taking a course. BUt now, well now I am there in 2 weeks. To introduce new people to our wonderful school. Someone asked me to give them reasons why I was so excited to go back. So I thought I would give some to you now.

1. It means I get to learn more about this wonderful world God created for me.
2. Brings me one step closer to accomplish my dream of becoming a music therapist.
3. I get to see my friends again, and this will be an extra special year because it will be my last there.
4. People sing ALL the time there, and whats more they are good at it!
5. I get to grow!

So there you have it. Five reasons why I am so excited to go back to school. I am also excited for this weekend because I get to see almost all of my friends again. And I get to hang out with my family cause it is my moms birthday. Yeah!

I love my job

So, the parents of one of the boys I work with, wants to get him started in music. Yeah thats right music. And who to start him but me! Oh I am so excited! Because he also likes arts and crafts so we are going to learn about music by making some instruments, and then playing them. I will also have some info for him on posterboard. And each time we make something else we can put a picture of the instrument and some of the things it likes to do. So so far we are going to make a guitar. (well I will be taking mine) We will also make a rain stick, and a tamborine. Yep thats right. So now I have to get pictures of those things, and buy posterboard. I hope it works. I am going to go and find some cool songs for the guitar. I think I will make them all tonight, and then let him pick what one he wants to make. Oh I am SO excited. What a chance to start working on the job that I dream to do one day. Yippee!!!!

Fuzzy Wuzzy

This is a poem written by my brother... I just thought I would share. I might have to write more, he could be showing me up!

Fuzzy Wuzzy was a Bear
Fuzzy Wuzzy had no hair
With all the others having hair
Fuzzy Wuzzy was quite Rare

Fuzzy Wuzzy was in despair
Cause all the other bears had hair
The other bears gave quite a scare
To Fuzzy Wuzzy they said "beware"

This made Fuzzy Wuzzy stare
At the wall, which was quite bare
Fuzzy longed to be in a barbers chair
Where cut would be his magnificent hair

But alas, Fuzzy Wuzzy did declare
I have no chance, I'll never have hair
And I'll never be a real bear
Not even with great care

The other bears in disrepair
Were mean to Fuzzy everywhere
The even tore his underwear
Poor Fuzzy needed medical care

Fuzzy sat in his easy chair
Whishing perhaps for an electric chair
With a loud puff of air
A magic fairy was suddenly there

The fairy asked "why are you so unaware?"
Of the principle of Laissez Faire
Under which I can legally sell fake hair
The fairy with a loud voice did declare

Fuzzy became out of air
His chest tight, would he take the dare
Fuzzy glanced at the vanity fair
And decided to buy the fake hair

Fuzzy Wuzzy was a bear
Fuzzy Wuzzy had fake hair
When Fuzzy walked in times square
Fuzzy felt he was walking on air
HB 2005

A poem and then some

Hello God
I needed to talk to You today, So I am taking time to pray.
You are my savior
You are my Lord.
You give me strength
When I am weak.
You help me always
YouÂ’re the one I seek.
I love you God
And all You do.
You are my Father
And I'm your child
I know that too.
I thank you for
The friends you give,
The love you share
That helps me live.
I thank You for
My family
They are always there
To strengthen me.
I thank you Father for all things.
All this I pray
Amen
By: Alyson Bosch ‚‘03

How awesome is our Lord!! I am just so happy that he is my savior and that I can pray to him and thank him for everything I have. I wrote this poem two years ago when I was just so overwhelmed with the love my heavenly Father bestowed on me. I am still overwhelmed, knowing I deserve nothing, and yet I have everything. Family, friends, love and happiness. I do not care about the other things like money. Why would I when I know I am in God's care?

Makes me think about my Job, I mean I am almost done for the summer, and I am kind of thankful. This summer was a very hard one for me. But I think that was also God, telling me that I need more patience ect. But I mean I look at it, and I am not making a lot of money Barely enough money to get me into school. But I know that I will be able to go. Because Concordia is the place were God wants me right now.

I am in this profession because I love what I do. I love being able to see someone pick up a fork and eat without having done it before. I love having conversations with someone who not very often can talk about something real. I love being able to laugh over the silliest things, and do silly things, and not looked down on. I love being able to use the talents God has bestowed on me. I love the people I work with. And I believe that each and every child that I come across this summer whether it be daily during my regular job, or when I was at camp. Have changed my life just a little bit. I will never forget the kids. I may want to forget some of the days, but never the kids, and never the fact that I made a difference in their life, even if it was just by being there. How wonderful and how blessed is the Lord that He has given me the chance to feel this, and the oppertunities do do what I am doing.

I can not wait till school starts. I mean, okay that sounds kinda dumb but I want to learn. I know I have been learning alot this summer. But now I need book learning. I am so ready to get my nose in a book and learn. To be able to study so that I can be one more year closer to my dream of being a music therapist. How wonderful and exciting. I am also excited to see my friends. I have not seen some of them for four months. And although it has been a good four months away from them I am starting to miss them, I am starting to miss the fact that we can talk about alot of things, and that I can learn through them. I know God put them in my life for a reason. Yippee for them. I can not wait to have discussions about anything and everything. I am also excited because school starting means Ashley is home for the year. I miss her more then I miss any of my other friends. She is my hero, my best friend. THe one that I can count on for anything. And to think that I get to see her soon, makes me so happy!

I leave you with this thought, how often do we look at everyday beauty and forget to realize that it was created by our heavenly Father. Let us praise Him with everything we have!

I pray for

A poem by me

I Pray For
I pray for peace of mind,
I pray for people to be kind.
I pray for those who are sad
and I pray for those who are mad.
I pray for comfort and peace.
I pray for everyone we meet.
I pray for happiness and love
I pray that everyone will know the one above.
I pray for you and for me,
I pray for our friends and our family.
I pray that each day will be true
and we praise God in all that we do.
Amen.

Alyson Bosch 05

Who am I?

I was listening to my very new Casting Crowns cd, and I came across one of my favorite songs called "Who am I" I would like to plce the lyrics for you Who am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt,
Who am I?
That the Bright and Morning Star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart,
Not because of who I am, But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are,
Iam a flower quickly fading,
Here and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am..
I am Yours.
Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin,
Would look on me with love,
and watch me rise again,
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me,

Not because of who I am,
But because of what You've done,
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who You are,

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean (ocean),
A vapor in the wind,
Still You hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling,
And You've told me who I am...
I am Yours, I am Yours.

I am Yours,
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am Yours, I am Yours. I just love that song. I mean the chorus, we are just small things that are abundant, like there are so many different waves, and yet God listens to us and hears us! Isnt that the most wonderful thing in the world! And just that we are so small, and yet God our father cares for us, and wants us to know that we are his. It just makes me smile! And makes me feel so special and loved. I know that my family loves me, but isn't is AMAZING and wonderful that God does too. So when someone askes "Who are you?" and you sit and ponder and say, "Yes Who am I?" Lets hope that you come up with the answer that you are Gods!!

Be Gods, and may You take all of His blessings and use them in your day

Home from Camp

So I am home from a delightful week at camp. How can anyone say that camp is no fun. Well it was AWESOME!!! maybe it had to do with the fact that I was right in my element, but who knows. I am so glad God has given me the ability to work with people with special needs.
It is just an amazing and rewarding experiance. I have so many stories, but its kind of funny because you really do not think they are funny or entertaining unless you are there. I think thats what is so special about camp. You get to learn something and experiance something that no one else will. Sure all the other councellers are there to learn and experiance but it is different for them. OH the joys. So I was my usual self (crazy) and took part in some fun games. I was an alien for the carnival night and was the game show host (my favorite) for the Game show night. I got to dress as a guy and the guy councellers were girls (oh it was so funny!) We also got our fair share of pranks done this weekend. One including grasshoppers in our beds. (shiver and yuck) But some how, it was funny. OH the Kids were amazing and once again taught me alot about myself. There was also a music therapist there one evening so I got to talk to her. It was so cool to hear what she had to say, especially since that is what I want to do with my life. Yeah yeah yeah.

I thank God for this wonderful week! Without Him I would never have been able to do it!

Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!

God is Wonderful

Okay so I would like to start by saying that God is wonderful. How often do we stop and think about him? How often do we stand back and look at all of the things He has created for us? My one friend (yes regan its you) wrote an email about rocks and how we stumble over the little ones. Basicly stating (if I have this right) That we focus to much on the little stuff. Its so true. We think, oh man I am not going to get this done on time. Or I can not play this piano piece right (after playing it twice, true story happened to me!) But trully it is not the kinda stuff we should worry about. I mean sometimes you have to worry about the small stuff, because it fits together with the big stuff. But not always. Anyway I just wanted to share. And I ask a question you can think about "What wonderful thing did God do in your life today?"

Be God's

my life as it was and is

I took this from my friends blog, but do not worry, I am changing the answers.....

What was I doing 10 years ago: Ten years ago, I was 11, probably at the lake, hanging out, getting ready for grade 7, hmm yeah thats about it. Working for dad
5 years ago: Working for my dad, and Soda Jerks, getting ready for my last year of school. 1 year ago: Started Concordia, working for Transitions, still on a high from going to Holland
Yesterday:Worked for my dad, then vegged at home, played guitar and piano, read and watched TV
5 Snacks I enjoy:Chocolate, Dropjes, pringles, Grapes, Cheese
5 songs I know all the words to: In Christ Alone – Newsboys; Wishing you were somehow here again– Phantom of the Opera; Shout to the Lord - Micheal W Smith; Jesus lover of my soul - unknown
5 Things I would do with a $100 million: Give lots of it to church, pay off school, give alot to charities, take ALL of my friends on a holliday, (maybe at different times) and spend it on my family!
5 Locations I would like to run away to: Europe, B.C., Klemtu, Africa, China
5 Bad habits I have: Being lazy, chewing my fingernails, saying "like" WAY to much, being an agressive driver, getting frusterated with my self
5 Things I like doing: singing, playing my instruments, hanging with friends and family, reading, and watching football
5 TV shows I like:CSI, NCIS, Law and Order, Spounge bob, (although only in small doses) and invader zim
5 Biggest joys of the moment: Rain, the boys I work with, my brother and parents, God, feeling at peace
5 Favorite toys: my guitar, piano, the computer, my humdinger, my stereo
5 movies I like: Phantom of the Opera, Sound of music, Remember the titans,West side Story, Shrek
5 People I miss the most: Okay so this one is hard... But I am going to have to say, Ashley Ostermeier, and well, yeah Ashley, and then I miss my school friends, and everyone I have not seen for a long time! (although thats more then five)

My Trip to Markerville

So Friday Amber Versteeg and I drive out to Crayola town, otherwise known as Markerville. Once there, we are greeted by...an empty house! Yep thats right, well okay we knew we would be, but still! Kels went hiking. So anyway They while waiting we sat on the couch and I played my guitar. Amber made up a song about their black fish with the eyes coming out of its head. So fun! So the family gets home, and Kelc puts us to work making a salad, while she goes and gets clean. (she needed too) From there we went to meet people and have a fire.

Sat. Amber and I get the 411 on Markerville. We go to coffee hour. (thats how you get the 411) So we got the tour of the creamery cause we wanted to. ( So Regan, I laughed more during the crayon tour. but it was a good tour. Mrs. Gamble gave it to us, Kelc was working) Kelc leaves with us and she gets changed and stuff. (well Amber did too) We go back and make ice cream. YUMMMYYYY! Then off to Sylvan to see the coffee shop the Gambles own, and have lunch and do a little shopping. Okay Kels and I walked Amber shopped. (it was still fun, Kelc saw this wonderful purse that said. "I'm to pretty to do math!" dont you just love it?) I did not get it though, for fear of not going back to markerville.

After Sylvan, we went and visited Jon Berg out were he worked and invited him over for an evening of Movies and supper. He said yes.

After visiting Jon we told him we would pick him up, we went to the cliffs, Because we drove all the way to the cliffs Kelc and I decided that we should jump them. So we did. YES SO FUN!!! I think we should do it again sometime with a ton of people. Amber has a grand picture of me jumping for those that do not believe I did.

So then we went to Happy hour at Aunt Sandy's (he he it consisted of the Gambles, Us and Aunt Sandy and Uncle Bill) I love happy hour in Markerville.

We then went picked up Jon, watched movies played dutch blitz, dropped Jon off, and went to bed.

Well what can I say about Sunday....... Amber and I went for a ride, wanted to see how many times the car spun, and then went to visit the ditch. We are okay, Amber was a little shocked because yeah, her car, she was driving.

Kelc Amber and I went to church while Mr and Mrs Gamble came to our rescue and were our heros. YEAH FOR THEM!!!! I have to say, I really like the church building, I knew all of the songs (cause the youth did them today) it was grand. We walked in to the Happy song. Yeah thats right, cause we needed to get happy!

After Church the car got fixed and Amber and I made it home!

HEre are some interesting qoutes from the weekend:
" I have never seen a deer out in a field before!....Oh can you stop at the road kill on the way home... I want at picture"

"So, I will send your cheque in the mail for being my kids friend! " (Yes I get paid for befriending a Gamble!)

"Maybe little knomes come out in the middle of the night and rake the gravel"

"How do you like it how do you like it? More MORE MORE" (Jon singing while playing dutch blitz"

(due to a random annoying song that fits with one sylable names) Amber"So the song sounds better if your name has one sylable" (after hearing the song already and saying it was horrible) Jon "How does that work" (and song get sung again!)

Sigh good times good times.

its true

He he he, I am not really stressed out, I just like this picture cause its fun. Anyway, My fingers hurt from playing Sahara, and I need to clean my room, and pack for my weekend getaway, and clean my bathroom, and I got rasberry sauce on my new WHITE pants, and a stain in my favorite shirt that will not come out. But......Life is great and God is good! Yeah yeah yeah!

Praise Adonai, from the rising of the sun, to the end of every day!

So mUch 2 saY!

Hey hey hey. So I have so much to say, but not alot of time. Wow last week was a whirl wind of adventures! It was so much fun watching Mike and Trish get married. I loved it I did I did. There were some down parts but that does not matter. It is amazing how God can just bring two people together. Yippeee!

Hmmm, Because I need sleep this will be short but you know. watering plants for my mom takes over 3 hours. Yep it sure does. Gag. and I am as red as a tomato! Yippee for me.

I want to add a picture cause I never thought I could do that. So lets see what i will add. Oh its my guitar. So nice I loves it. I even named it. For a while I was trying out the name Zoey, my friend Regan suggested it, but then I was like nope I do not like that. I have now named it Sahara. Yep like the desert. I loves it. Anyway enjoy looking at her, I sure do. And I like playing her. Just ask Henry and Laura..

Gone

Im In Ontario, and will tell you all about it when I Get home!

Did I read that Sign Right?

Did I Read That Sign Right?

In an office:
TOILET OUT OF ORDER...... PLEASE USE FLOOR BELOW

In a Laundromat:

AUTOMATIC WASHING MACHINES: PLEASE REMOVE ALL YOUR CLOTHES WHEN THE LIGHT GOES OUT

In a London department store:
BARGAIN BASEMENT UPSTAIRS

In an office:
WOULD THE PERSON WHO TOOK THE STEP LADDER YESTERDAY PLEASE BRING IT BACK OR FURTHER STEPS WILL BE TAKEN

In an office:
AFTER TEA BREAK STAFF SHOULD EMPTY THE TEAPOT AND STAND UPSIDE DOWN ON THE DRAINING BOARD

Outside a secondhand shop:
WE EXCHANGE ANYTHING - BICYCLES, WASHING MACHINES, ETC. WHY NOT BRING YOUR WIFE ALONG AND GET A WONDERFUL BARGAIN?

Notice in health food shop window:
CLOSED DUE TO ILLNESS

Spotted in a safari park:
ELEPHANTS PLEASE STAY IN YOUR CAR

Seen during a conference:
FOR ANYONE WHO HAS CHILDREN AND DOESN'T KNOW IT, THERE IS A DAY CARE ON THE 1ST FLOOR

Notice in a farmer's field:
THE FARMER ALLOWS WALKERS TO CROSS THE FIELD FOR FREE, BUT THE BULL CHARGES.

On a repair shop door:
WE CAN REPAIR ANYTHING. (PLEASE KNOCK ####### THE DOOR - THE BELL DOESN'T WORK)

La la la

So, I have only three more days of work and then off I go! I am starting to get excited for ONtario. Yeah yeah. And the fact that I am having a holiday. Oh yeah. And oh I am going to visit a friends family from Sat. to Sunday. So yeah yeah yeah. I am so excited. Ontario here I come. And then three more days of work. Plus a meeting and Shakespeare in the park. And off I go for the weekend. Yeah yeah yeah. Oh I am looking forward to it. And summer is half over. Sigh! (but in a way that also is a good thing. I want to learn!)

one more week

So I have one more week until I go to Ontario. Meaning one more week till I see my best friend. oh why can't it be today? Sigh today I was not with it and seemed kinda out there spaced and grumpy. I was not grumpy, I just miss Ash so terribly much. I am in one of those, I just want to see you and hug you. I miss her, because a year ago my Oma died, and I need to talk to Ashley. I dont know, I just want to hear her voice and know that she is doing okay. And that everything is alright there. I just can not wait to see her in a week. And then I will be all better. YEah!

Oh and there are days when I think of everyone else too, dont worry.

Because

So, I thought I would post this. It was my last devo for teen club

YOU

I fell, and you picked me up

I cried, and you held me

I sank, and you pulled me up

I drowned and you saved me.

You hold me close when no one is around

You watch my feet so I do not stumble.

You guide my path with light when it’s dark.

You hold my hand when I am alone.

You prevent me from harm.

You water and feed me.

You protect me.

You saved me.

Thank you for being my All in All

My strength, my hope

Thank you for being my God!

Sometimes we think we can do nothing, or we feel like we are falling, and nothing we can do will help. And that’s right, nothing can! The only way that we can do something is if God is there helping us. “Apart from me you can do nothing” John 15:5b Everyday each and every single one of us has so much to do. And everyday we do it. But do we ever sit back and think. “If it weren’t for God, I would not have been able to do this.” Or do we just carry on our day without thinking about it? There are so many things that have happened in each and every single one of our lives, that if it were not for God, we would have had a worse outcome. Someone used this analogy on me before. Sometimes we are holding a rock close to our face, and it looks huge. Almost too big to handle, but then we hold it farther away. And we throw it into the pond. It does not look that big anymore. We can look at it as, by ourselves this rock or problem is huge, but then we cast it away, and lay it down at God’s feet. Then it disappears because God took care of it! Just like Psalm 55:22 says “Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you, He will never let the righteous fall”. Isn’t it amazing that God is always going to be there to protect us? He will always be willing and ready to help. He is our strength and our hope.

A verse that I think is really neat is Isaiah 40:30-31. Were it talks about the fact that even us, who are young become tired and weak, and then God is there to give us strength! God will never let us crash and fall to the point were we can not get up again. Because although things might seem impossible by ourselves. Nothing is impossible with God!

Procrastination

Here I am sitting behind my computer again. This seems to happen everyday. And I am on for the same reasons. Teen Club. Yep sure am, but everyday I get distracted by something else. How horrible of me, what kinda leader am I if I can not write a simple Devo. And it has to be done by tomorrow. Meaning I need to get it done. Meaning AHHHHHH! So why am I writing in my blog. Good question. I think cause I can not think of anything to write that is a good devo. It will come to me, it always does.

I can't believe this is the last meeting of the year. I loved it so much. Sometimes as my friends can attest, I disliked doing the work. I think cuase I was so busy already with so much stuff. But once I sat down and did it, it was wonderful. These kids are so smart!

Anyway, things are good I have no complaints. I love life. I love being who I am and having fun. I am even hanging with people I have not hung with for a while. And Love it! YIPPEEE. Although I still miss everyone else. But its not like I am alone! ( I was never alone) Ahh the joys of summer.

But I should get back to writing, I think I got something

hmmm again

I dont know.....

You're Thailand!

Calmer and more staunchly independent than almost all those around you,
you have a long history of rising above adversity. Recent adversity has led to questions
about your sexual promiscuity and the threat of disease, but you still manage to attract a
number of tourists and admirers. And despite any setbacks, you can really cook a good
meal whenever it's called for. Good enough to make people cry.
style="font-family:Times New Roman;font-size:85%;">Take the Country
Quiz at the Blue Pyramid

Hmmmm

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I felt moved

Isn't it funny when you finish writing something, then all of a sudden you feel moved. Well here it is.

You changed my life
and made me see
how precious someones life can be.
You struggle with life day by day
And you try really hard to be able to say
Everything that you are feeling
and everything that you know.
One day your wisdom will be able to show
Others who you really are.
I wish I could hold you
and make it alright,
I wish I could change you
so you get through the night.
I know that I help you
with all that you do.
I know that I have taught you so much too.
Together we will show them
how smart you can be
Together we will help you
Stand up for people to see!
That you are amazing and so very smart,
that you yourself are a great piece of art!
Alyson Bosch '05

need to feel it

I need to feel the need to write. I am loosing focus, maybe nothing has happened really in my life that I can write on. When I mean write, I don't just mean a story of the day. NO I can do that when ever I want. I like writing storys. But I mean poetry. I need something to move me. someone move me! I could write on not feeling moved. But that would be dumb. Anyway, I am not unhappy just unmotivated. I will have to think of something.

*Giggle*

I have no other ways to discribe this blog but *giggle* Last night Alyson had a life. I know it was wonderful. And for her life she went out with her brother and three wonderful people. (yep your wonderful) The fact that we had more fun and spent less money bowling then those wanting to go and watch Star Wars, makes it even better. Okay so I was over tired, and that means I had no control over myself. (no not that way!) Giggle, I was well, very giggley and on the verge. Nope I was hyper. It was fun. So I will give you a run down on the evening.

So bowling was 10 pin. Oh so much fun, so much better. Anyway the girls (the three wonderful people) do not go 10 pin very often. Not to say I do either, but for this story I do go more often. Anyway, to watch them bowl was very fun, and I laughed alot. As did everyone else. The brother tried wierd things while bowling, and was out to get me. But I WON! The Aly(i)sons won! YIPPEE we rule. And I must say that we established that she and I were joined but were seperated at birht and she got the extra leg height, that is why she is taller. But we are SO alike it is creepy! Everyone there thinks so.

So then after a grand evening of bowling, we went to BPS. The same one were the crayon eating happens. (a whole nother story!) Yep, there the fun continued with colouring and just fun random things. My sides still hurt from the laughter.

Although, I do think that my tiredness made it that I was totally unaware how crazy I was. I realize that wow, I have not been that way for a while. Giggle, but I did not harm any body, and I would not take back what I did. I had to much fun. And I am willing to do it all over again. You game girls???

Over and out.
ps. I rule at 10 pin yeah!

What a wonderful day

Wow, today is so awesome. I got to work this morning thinking I was going to go to the parade with my guy. Well, instead of going to the parade, we were IN the parade. Yeah so much fun. So cool! I loved it!!!!!! (can you tell?) Anyway and the sun is shinning down on me, and the world is wonderful. And I feel like this is turning into the "blessed be your name" song. And I get my guitar next week. And I am burnt. And I just feel alive today! Happiness. Praise God for wonderful days.
Oh and I got to talk to Leah on the phone YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh and I got a really nice message from a friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and I think Letters might be coming soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Blah

Blah, its raining, and that is suited to my mood!
I have been talking to a couple people on MSN and it makes me miss them. And I have been getting emails and such from everyone. I love that. And I was able to talk to Ashley.

So Why am I blah? I think it is because they are all not here. I hate that. And I am sick. I thought I would be better by today so that I could go to work. But I am still sick. I hate it!

Anyway........ I have not written a poem for a while and my creative juices are not flowing. I hate when that happens. But I know that it will come back.

I am also having a hard time being me sometimes. I hate that things do not come easy. Although I am truly myself with some people, with the people that I have only met like a few months ago.

So one of my friends is pregnant, I am happy for her.

I just want to be held! I miss talking to people about things and praying about it right away. I miss just being held. I miss hugs and encouraging words. I miss hearing "hey babe" or ALLLYYYY!!! or "hello Beutiful!" All of a sudden I feel alone! And I hate it!

In Search of Music

So..... I play piano and I sing. But I need to learn guitar for school! Hence I need a Guitar. And do not know what the best kind of guitar there is. So before I go out there and buy one (second hand) I need opinions. Because if it were only up to me, I would pick it because of the colour. Ahhh!!!! Someone help. I am so excited though! I get to learn Guitar!

JOYS

Well, in the beginning this was not going to be a joys kind of blog entry but I am working with one of the boys I have not worked for in a while on Thursday. so JOYS! Anyway...
You know when you have those days when you just feel blah, like nothing is going your way and you just want to cry? Well I am having one of those days today. I really feel just like crying. I miss people.
I really miss Ashley!!! I know that I will see her soon and that makes me happy. But honestly it is hard without her.

I also miss everyone from school, it is weird that I do not see them everyday. I have only 3 months before I see them all again. And I know I get to see some of them soon. But things have been going on that I just really want to talk to some of them. And I can not. Oh well, life still goes on.

And its funny, but I miss some of the people that live here. Okay I see them, but not very often and that has affected the friendships. OH well time to move on.

On the other hand, I have met some great people that have been coming to our church. They are so much fun and I am so glad that we are becoming good friends. Yippee for them.

Anyway I hope you all are having a wonderful day...... I am thinking of you and praying for you!

Life as it is

Well, I have been out of school for three weeks and am finally starting to miss people. That sounds bad but it is true. I have just been so busy. But yesterday someone was here before they went traveling, and I was not able to see them I was a little sad but that is the way life is. *sigh*

I was watching Phantom last night. (Glorious movie I am so glad I own it) and it is weird I started associating myself with the Phantom. I mean he only wanted to love someone and be loved by someone. Now the way he did it was creepy and weird. (having a live looking statue of Christine in his place) Creepy! But sometimes I just want to love someone but God has a plan and I know I will not be alone forever. Because I could always become the first CanRC nun! YEAH!

Ha!

YES! I act only two years older then I am!

You Are 23 Years Old

23 Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

wow

So yesterday was the wedding of my really good friends. I must say the person playing piano was wonderful. (ahhemm ahhemm!) But I can not believe it though another one of my class mates is off and married, and here I am as single as I can be. I know that my life is totally in God's hands, and I just have to leave it there. But sometimes it is just so hard. I mean I have a ton of guy friends, but.....Ahhhh. Sorry just frusterated a little bit. I know I have to be happy with what I have. And do not get me wrong I totally am. But you know when you just feel like something is missing. And you see all of your friends start to get married. Kinda sucks a little bit. Anyway.

So the summer has begun. I am working outside, and at the moment loving it. I mean the outside is wonderful and I love getting dark and all that jazz. But I also can not wait until I am working at my "real" job for the summer. Oh I have so many glorious things planned!

Tonight I get to see some friends from school, and next week I get to see some more. That makes me so happy. I am excited. Oh and I have the most wonderful movie in the world. Phantom belongs to Alyson!!! YES!

Smile even when you are feeling down, because you never know who can fall in love with your smile!

Arrgggg!

I WANT MY MARKS!!!!!!!!!

*have a wonderful day!*

Last One I promise

Your #1 Match: ENFP

The Inspirer You love being around people, and you are deeply committed to your friends. You are also unconventional, irreverant, and unimpressed by authority and rules. Incredibly perceptive, you can usually sense if someone has hidden motives. You use lots of colorful language and expressions. You're qutie the storyteller! You would make an excellent entrepreneur, politician, or journalist.

Your #2 Match: ENFJ

The Giver You strive to maintain harmony in relationships, and usually succeed. Articulate and enthusiastic, you are good at making personal connections. Sometimes you idealize relationships too much - and end up being let down. You find the most energy and comfort in social situations ... where you shine. You would make a good writer, human resources director, or psychologist.

Your #3 Match: ENTP

The Visionary You are charming, outgoing, friendly. You make a good first impression. You possess good negotiating skills and can convince anyone of anything. Happy to be the center of attention, you love to tell stories and show off. You're very clever, but not disciplined enough to do well in structured environments. You would make a great entrpreneur, marketing executive, or actor.

Your #4 Match: ESFP

The Performer You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others. A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic. You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally. You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic. You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's Your Personality Type?