HOmework

So calling all those who want to do my homework for me. I have to write an essay in english class. The poems I have to right about are relationship poems. Ones envolving breakups. And I have to compare them. How am I going to do this. Ahhhh. I could write a poem on the lack of boyfriends, and heartaches and breakups, but to compare poems. And at this time, it is just depressing. Utterly depressing!

I want to be able to do really good in this class. I want to kick butt because I love english! But how can I do it. I want to add one of my poems to the end of it. Just because I think that would be fun. And I want to know what my teacher thought of my presentation... I wonder if she would tell me if I emailed her. Hmmmm. Maybe I would do that and then ask her about the poems at the same time. Or maybe i can go there tomorrow, with part of my essay and get her to look at it. Yeah maybe I will do that. and then ask about my presentation, because I think I did good, but I do not know.

Sometimes I hate school. Sometimes I feel so dumb and I do not know what I am going to do. But I talked to Ashley today and she was like Alyson what is your dream. what do you want to do. So here I am working my butt off, because Ashley is right, Like most of the time. I love her for it too.

And then there are the other reasons......AMBER!!! I do not know what I would do without her. She makes me so happy sometimes. And Rhonda and Scott, to be able to say, I need to pray guys, and have them totally drop everything to do that. YIPPEEE! I love all of my friends.

And regardless of how I hate school, I still have to have fun, and I still thank God that I am in school. Because I am still learning so much, school wise, spiritual wise, and friend wise.

Standing in the open

So here I am, standing in the open.
I just want to say that I feel so much better having everything out and in the open. I am also so excited about my mission trip. I can not wait to go. OUr team is amazing. They are hard working and all excited to go! I can not wait. I can not wait to see how God is going to work in our lives. And how He is going to use us on our trip. I just pray that He guides us and that everything we do, is to the Glory and honour of Him.

Praise and worship went really well today. THe girls did a really good job with the drime, and the rest of the worship was really well done.

I am so glad I have such great friends. Sometimes though I wish that Ashley came to my school because it would make things so much more perfect. I would love it. But alas she goes to the university, and not concordia. Oh I love that girl. She can not be replaced. I love my friends at school, but nothing compares.

I am so happy that I am at this school. I am learning alot and I have some very strong friendships. I was telling one of my friends that no matter how we look at it, we will always be part of each others lives and no matter what we will always remember eachother. Isn't that grand! I like that alot.

I thank God so much for giving me so many blessings.

Free

I smile
I laugh
I am finally free!
I giggle
I cry
I am finally free!
Free of worry
free of pain
free of the unknown
I sing
I pray
I am finally free!
You hear it
I AM FREE!!!!!

You

You look at me,
and I try to read your eyes.
You wrap your arms around me,
and I try to hear your heart.
You smile at me,
and I can't help but smile back.
You Talk to me
and your words, they encourage.
You mean so much to me
and I want to find the words to tell you.
But
You are tearing me up inside,
and your bringing me to tears
You do not realize it,
and its causing me to fear.
I do not know what I am going to tell you
I want to know what to say
My heart is saying one thing,
and my mind is going the other way.
I know I have to follow what I believe in.
I know this is where I will stay.
But you mean so much to me.
I don't want it to go away.

Alyson Bosch 05

Want to tell me

Well I am bored, so I figure I am going to do something. Here is the deal, I have made up 5 questions. Ones that you can fill out about me at your own desire. Why cause its fun and I want to see if what you know about me and what YOU think of me (hopefully it is good!), and just fun things like that. Maybe after a little bit I will give you the answers to the questions..... But only if you are lucky. Bwah ha ha ha ha.

1. If I were to be one place at school, where would it be and why?

2. If you were to describe me in 1 sentence how would you?

3. What is one of the most important things in my life?

4. If you were to take me somewhere, where would it be and why?

5. Why do I hang out with you? ( there must be a reason!)

See that is not that hard hey. Have fun!!!!

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She'd do anything to sparkle in his eye
She would suffer, she would fight, and compromise
She's been wishin' on the stars that shine so bright
For answers to the questions that will haunt her tonight

And she must rinse this all away
She can't hold him this way
She must rinse this all away
She can't love him this way

Vanessa Carlton Rinse

So I was listening to this song in the car on the way home, and I was like wow this is how I feel. Because I have to rinse it way. I have to say goodbye, but sometimes it is so hard. I just wish I could just get the answers from God right now. Be like, why am I going through this? What is the point of it? Are you still testing me? Is there a reason I still feel the way I do? I pray everyday that He helps me through this. I do not want to be weak and say, yes when I know I cannot. When I know I should not. AHH!!!! LIFE, Can I be 5 again???

In other news, its good to be back at school, and Amber and I have made it work so we see eachother at least a couple times a day. for a little bit. Got to love working it out.

Back Again

I walk through the doors,
everything seems so familiar.
The bussle,
the business,
the running around.
The halls look the same
the rooms are just as we left them.
Things needing to get done,
going up to the dorms.
Hanging out.
I am back,
Back where I belong,
back to learning, and fun
I'm back in school!

Well, okay I am back in school on monday, but I was there today and I saw Mattyk and Neal. I really jumped them. It was grand. And for all those wondering after giving them both a few hugs I was normal. Although I did Short sheet Matty's roommates bed(that being Scotts!). BWAH HA HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!! ( no one tell him k!) And I was normal I was able to carry on a normal convo with Matty as he unpacked. it was grand. BUt I see them all tomorrow again. YIPPEEE!

Falling Rain

The Rain falls all around me,
and yet I can not feel it.
I am free.
Puddles are at my feet,
but I am not getting wet
I am free.
People are running around me,
getting out of the rain,
but I stand still
I am free.
The air smells fresh,
Chrisp and clean.
I am free.
Free of the worry,
free of the pain,
Free of the unknown.
Because the falling rain has washed it away
and I am free.

The count is on!

Some would call me crazy, others are just going to laugh. But I want to go back to school. I am counting the days, there are 6 left. Sigh, I think I have turned into a Keener! Either that or I am just anxious to see my friends again, but I see most of them in 3 days! I know, I know I am in need of a life.

Two of my favorite people from school came over yesterday. It was wonderful! I missed them lots, and it was just great to see them again and to hug them. I Do not know what I am going to be like on Friday. Maybe I will play it calm, cool and collected. YEAH RIGHT! I will be excited. But you know what that is okay, because I am aloud to do that. Just as long as I am a good excited and not a scary excited. Well they can always dunk me in the pool if I get over heated. Tee hee.

And then on Monday I start classes again. YOu know whats funny. I started to read some of my text books. Probably because I was bored, and I had nothing better to do. Ahh well that is okay. As long as I keep it up during the year. I counted, I have 7 classes but I am dropping one on Thursday so I will only have 6. AHHH what am I going to do. That is kinda scary, and I have no time. But you know I did it last term so I will do it again this term. And I will do it well.

I will strive to be the best that I can be in this new year. I will get better grades, and I will maintain a positive attitude. And I will continue to be me!

Friends

So, today I got a phone call from the Gambles. It was wonderful, I miss them and I thought I would see Kels on Friday for swimming but now they decided they are coming in on Sat. morning. Now I will not be able to see Kels at all until maybe sunday when she might come to my church!!! Yippee! And maybe Scott can come too, and I will tell Rhonda cause I know she wanted to.

Tomorrow I see Andrew and Amber! I was supposed to work, but they phoned saying it will be to cold. So I don't have to do that either. That makes me happy!

But anyway, my New years was really good. In the beginning I was not sure how good it would be, cause things just seemed alittle wierd. But after they got better. I like the fact that we opened the new year with Bible reading and prayer. It is Wonderful to remember who actually gave us this year. And then we went and crashed the adult party to say happy new year to them. It was fun. Then Ashley and I went in her van and prayed. It was probably the best part of the evening. Being able to pray with Ashley. It is a memory that will stick in my head! I love her so much. And I thank God for her everyday. Except now the tables are turned because instead of her worrying about me, ( I have almost resolved that issue, it just has to be put to the test when school starts.) I am now worrying about her. I pray for her, and I pray that things will turn out for the best. And what ever happens is the Lords doing. And I just want to always be there for her, to hold her when she needs to cry. To be with her when she needs me. And just to be that ear. I hate when she is upset, and I want to make it better, but I do not know how this time. Ashley I love you.

Arissa is another one on my mind. Vern is leaving for Bible college next week, and she is staying here. She is having a hard time because most of her boyfriends have lived far away.
And the fact that we never talk anymore. It kinda makes me sad. I was there for Christmas, but she was only there for 10 minutes. I guess that is what happens when you have a boyfriend. And really I can see them getting married. But that is okay because I really like Vern. He is fun to talk to and easy to get along with. So I am okay if she marries this one. (not like I would have a say! besides no to being in her wedding but like that would happen!) But She is always on my mind too.

It is so great to have friends and at this time, I would like to thank the Lord for blessing me with a large array of friendships.

Another Year

Wow, another year is over, and now a new one is beginning. I am starting it off right by going to see Phantom on Thursday and then on Friday after work, I am going swimming and sleeping at Rhondas. And then school starts again. Oh great joys!

It is funny, but I want to go back to school now. Not just to see the friends, but to learn. It is wonderful.

Today I had a pot luck at church that was fun. I was able to talk to my friends for a while, about some serious stuff. It was good. I also got to play with my princess. (My self adopted baby. actually belonging to a friend of mine!) It was wonderful. Except for the fact that everyone was like, that looks good on you Alyson. Yeah okay well find me a guy so that I can get married, so that it can happen! Ah well, I have to finish school first and then off to B.C. I go! Then maybe once I am there. But who knows the Lord willing one day it will come. Either way it is okay with me at this moment. Maybe when Tom and Mir get Married in May I will be a little sad, but other then that, Meh, life does go on!